I am really trying to quit this addictive game haha - As much as I love it & the friends I have made playing it; I am too competitive & this game requires too much activity for me to continue to play it much longer. I had initially planned to quit in the wake - but was drawn back into a new world and so glad I did as I equally found a great social environment. Now I guess I will wait for the completion of that world (w93) before calling quits on this game - albeit I am still open to a final hoorah on w100 (you will all have to wait and see
). Now to anyone reading this and thinking ‘wtf this isn’t an apology this self absorbed prick is just talking about himself more,’ here is where it starts. My behaviour during the start & middle of W80 was atrocious. I am deeply ashamed by some of the postings I made & the way I acted and I have no excuses for my actions. To all of my enemies, even those I do not respect, I would like to apologize. I want to say I’m sorry if I ever mistreated you & I hope you realize how personal this world is to me & why I would get so caught up in my emotions sometimes when posting. I am not using this as an excuse - this is first & foremost an apology - so once again I am truly sorry for my behaviour but I hope there are no hard feelings moving forward. I can’t say I’m now this fully good person - but I am trying, I do still make mistakes & get caught up in emotion but overall I am working towards being in control of all of that & I am man enough to admit when I’ve been wrong and to try to atone for my actions.
To be fair, while there are some players in Regime I do not respect for their behaviour; there are so many that I do - I want to say special mentions to a few players from regime who later went on to become my friends - Nox…… Noxie you get the first shoutout. Despite recent events; you are the reason I played w93 & I would really like to thank you for that opportunity. Next to 80 it has been my favourite world. w93 actually made TW fun for me again and I would never have had the opportunity to play it properly if not for your invite. Next is Nest … Nest I always had a deep respect for you from the start. Your posts were classy & you provided a more statistical and in my opinion better analysis of the world than UBM. I don’t believe we talked much on w80 but you were in the same w93 premade. There I developed an even deeper respect for you upon learning your past & through just chatting with you. I admire your intelligence and organization & while I know we don’t see eye to eye on how tribes should be run; Nest has continued to give me opportunities he probably shouldn’t have and I am glad I got to meet you on this world. My final individual shoutout to a regime player is going to go to Andrew (Supa Hot Fire). I never did talk to him during w80 (although I am rather close with his former co Jet) but upon joining us on w93 - I noticed what a classy & likeable guy he is and how positively he impacts the social dynamic of a tribe. Furthermore through some chatting over the past few weeks I am privlidged to now call Andrew my friend.
Finally I want to thank you all in Regime; again even those who I do not respect; for putting up such a long, diligent & thrilling fight. One final time I’d like to apologize to Ben; for letting him down and the tribe down. I know a lot of players currently on this world didn’t know him personally; but if you ask me that makes it even more special that you had a group of players who didn’t even know the guy to come in & win the world in his honour is a very classy move. So first and foremost thank you to Ryan2 & Amanda for steadying the ship in the wake. I know it was a seemingly impossible task; but you did the best you could given the circumstances & your efforts are very commendable. Second, I want to thank Pavle - iirc Pavle initially came on as a Te Moja co? (correct me if im wrong) but once w76 was won for him, he moved his entire focus here & brought reinforcements. He has been a devastating force to be reckoned with & a great leader and there is no way the world would have been won without him. Third, I’d like to thank Thom, Jorge, Jen, Mike, Cam & the rest of the -ND- crew who came over after w73 was won to turn the world around. (EDIT: apparently i'm to thank WTs according to mike xD) You guys honestly did something incredible - and I cannot thank you enough for what you have done here. Also Joris & Tiger Joris, Rut, Sidd, mceocki & so many more you guys were tanks through the clutch moment in the world. Finally, again going to apologize to Jason & emphasize his importance to the tribe. Not many people I know would come back to a tribe that chased them out; but to come back and be one of the best players for the tribe is something out of this world. You are a good man Jason & I’m sorry I ever implied otherwise. There are so many people I want to thank for making this happen & I know I’m missing a few but I also think I’ve overtyped a little haha so I’m going to try to wrap this up.
Anyhow - to sum things up - W80 has been a journey for me. It was part of the worst time of my life & also the best time of my life. I wanted to share my story in it’s rawest form, as I want it to be heard. Remember that you are playing with real people & you can make real lasting friendships in this game. Remember that a tribe is like a family and you need to look after your tribemates as you would your siblings. We sit here for hours on hours each day talking to these people; talking, laughing, coordinating, arguing, joking & so much more. The TW community truly has some wonderful people in it - we lost one of them in Ben - but I hope if you take anything away from my post it’s that this game is an amazing world to enthral yourself in - you meet great people & can make relationships that go beyond the game. Also please, see my pain & that of others caused by this tragedy, and never put your family, friends or tribemates through the same - please get help if you feel like you can’t go on; you owe it to yourself to try. I have always been really bad at conclusions - but my w80 story ends in 90 days and it’s time to share it - this is by far the longest world I’ve personally played and it’s just mesmerizing to see Ben as the winner & looking back at how the world evolved over time and all the friendships I made is something I reminisce on frequently.